Courage is the Theme of the Day: Be A Beast

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You know what you need to do. I know what I need to do today. There is a list of things that have been brewing and there is something inside ready to be revealed. September was an incredible month of change. As we emerge into October with a Full Moon eclipse and who knows (someone — not me) what else, there is a strong call to courage today.

Yesterday morning I grieved the loss of my life as it was — I am now on the road and in my old stomping ground of Durham. It is amazing to be here, now, on this adventure, and when I went to pray and sing in my friends living room it became clear that my house, temple, and physical markers of sacred space are passed on and left behind or packed. The temple is me now. Let’s be clear — it’s always me in me, and you in you, and through everything, I am just referring to the distinct experience of this as it shows up now.

The feelings are sweet (even if uncomfortable at times) as they speak to the oceans of love I have for the people and places I will miss dearly while on this journey.

The feelings are sweet (even if uncomfortable at times) as they speak to the oceans of love I have for the people and places I will miss dearly while on this journey.

I woke feeling almost dizzy with the number of things that have been un- or under-attended in this transition, and with a focus and dedication to make amends and get down to business. Such things as addressing emails that require making a decision can be quite anxiety producing for me. It’s not the decision and getting clarity part that is so hard, its the feeling of getting it wrong. This is where the THEME of THE DAY comes in.

DO IT ANYWAY!
Be a BEAST!

You have a vision — it could be simple, even mundane, or it could be a radical and big project, likely both. Today I encourage you: Deep breaths and be willing to be wrong, off, upsetting, inspiring, stimulate other people’s feelings of jealously, hurt, disappointment and risk, activating feelings of hope, love, joy, perhaps even ecstasy. I am not saying set out to have anyone else feel anything. I am saying — Do What YOU KNOW Needs to be DONE.

Be a BEAST!

I remembered learning how wolves restored dry lands — their presence and eating of animals actually brought MORE LIFE! short video that feels very important to me today:

I had this vision of needing the beasts, big animals, specifically the wolves. There are lots of beasts so pick one (or ten) that you can connect with, today I offer the wolves. Some other beasts that resonate with the essence of the message are the Big Cats, whales, and buffalo. The planet needs these bigger beasts, the beasts that have been hunted just like the our wisdom and we need the power, the wisdom, and to take up space like them. In the theme of the day we need them, to be them. (Watch this short video that feels very important to me today.)

We need THE PACK, not the herd.

I love herding animals. Dear are often recognized as the essence of Shamanism and essential teachers. I honor and treasure the medicine of the herd. This is not an end all be all here — it’s the message I got for today, or any day when you need to Be a Beast, be The Pack that drives the herd. There are people who need our aliveness, our awareness, our knowledge, and our Showing Up and sharing our vulnerability AKA our power.

I recorded the end of singing yesterday morning to share with you all.

Courage: Being afraid and doing it anyway.

Blessing and gratitude dear powerful and changing force that is your Beast.
Mad love from the Road.
Love,
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Sophia

New Video on Healing with Recent Ancestors and Updates on the Ensuing Adventure

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The Rising of the Wise One Council was incredible. Moving, powerful, gentle, inspiring. I am so grateful for everyone who participated. The stories of healing have been pouring in all week as people are watching the recording on their own time and/or finding words to describe what they experienced. (If you want to listen or watch the recording its still up and you are invited to do so, just sign up at this link to get instant access.)

This week is a total adventure. We are moving out of our house, putting all that we can’t fit in our car in storage, and setting out to cross the country. We don’t know where we’ll land, and we’re not planning on knowing ’til we find it.

Acknowledging and grateful tears come at every corner: thanking our bed before it moves out to its new home, giving my desk to a friend, dropping the car off for its mechanic check-up. Everything is a sign that this “idea,” this “plan,” is now, currently, presently, a reality.

I just keep thinking how beautiful my life is now — the life that has fed the courage to take off, launch a new biz model, take what we can fit in the car and finally fulfill the teen dream of driving across the country, and to some of my friends, the inevitable living in Cali I was always destined to do at some point. It feels beautiful, touching, scary, fun, exciting, and unknown.

This week I have a video for cleaning up relationships with people who have died — your recent ancestors. Parents, siblings, friends, grandparents.

This video comes at a great time. We are in the middle of the Jewish Calendar’s Holy week, which is all about owning up to your shortcomings and making amends, as well as participating as other people make amends with you.

Forgiving and being forgiven.

In my experience, that is really all that’s between you and the Beloved, God, consciousness, your soul, whatever you want to call it. Healing any relationship is an exercise in healing the one relationship we have.

Healing relationships is really helpful for having peace of mind and clarity moving forward. It always amazes me how much an old hurt can hold me and other people back.

I talk about “having it out” with your loved ones, or your hated ones for that matter. Come clean, get clean, and don’t stop till you get to the gratitude. Here’s what I offer you though, don’t force the positivity or the compassion, just stay honest and all that love and compassion stuff will come out once you’ve acknowledged the crap on top of it.

Lots of love and extra long hugs (bonus that happens a lot during transition),
Sophia Wise One

Healing with Big Ancestors

This Saturday The Rising of the Wise One Council + Birthing the New Earth is going to touch on a bunch of this, both in talk and in healing. Remember, if you can’t join me live for the free event, please still sign up and I will send you a recording of the medicine circle that you can experience on a day that works for you.

When I think about healing with ancestors I think of both blood line ancestors as well as spiritual ancestors. Your spiritual line line can be a lineage you are initiated into by a teacher connecting you to many teachers, a deep knowing that in a past life you were priestess of Brigid and you have dreams teaching you the ways of your temple, or a general sense and connection to a practice of this earth or from a dream realm. “Spiritual ancestors” is my catch all for what feels inherited in some sense that’s not clearly from your bloodline.

Big ancestors is a phrase I use in juxtaposition to recent ancestors like your grandparents, parents, uncles, or relatives that you knew this life or know by name. (Healing with them is my next video.) My “big ancestors” are all those ancestors I couldn’t name — but who know I came from.

The heart of this teaching is that you can make amends, re-establish trust, gain knowledge and learn something from these big ancestors.

Using the “I am willing to admit” exercise with an additional “I am grateful for” prompt in a simple ritual format can really work wonders for putting disgruntled feelings to rest, opening a connection, and even processing wider cultural wounds.

Give it a shot and let me know how it goes.

Hope to see you Saturday.

Lots of love!
Sophia

Wedding Pictures, Moving Announcement, and Other Sharing

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Dear One,

The last time I wrote I said I would have a big reveal at the end of the week. Well, as always learning learning learning, things that are alive and vibrant have their own perfect time lines, that sometimes are not concerned with mine : ) . Hopefully the big reveal will come this weekend — we’ll see together, you and I, when it will be!

I want you to save the date for September 27th, Saturday, for the free online virtual event full of wisdom and healing that I will be announcing soon.

Chapter 1 — The Cross Country Adventure

My incredible wife has made the brave choice of selling her 15-year-old business, our beloved Reiki School + Clinic, to take time to discover, play, heal and adventure. We are driving off in early October on a month-long road trip across the country and will be arriving in California in November to find our spot for the year. The vision (I rarely say plan — I see a path, I am walking it, co-creating it, responding to it, in real time) is to be out west for a year to be with our muses in a time of fun and self discovery.

For me it’s a time of dedication to the evolution of my teaching, mentoring, and healing work *in* the world. It’s a powerful time of transition. Full of excitement, nerves, grief, and an immense gratitude for life and freedom and possibility.

It’s finally time to share about my wedding. I was thinking this morning, how often when I have a very profound experience it can take months before I want to talk about it or share, and in some ways, I think that is because they are still happening. My marriage feels like that.

In the past month I got the question during my morning practice — “what if I leaned all the way into being married . . . just lean all the way in and find out what life is then.” So here I am leaning. And loving. I have to tell you — I love being married every day a little more. I am pretty sure that’s because leaning into reality is a very peacemaking thing.

I often have a harder time sharing the joy than the hardship — so this is big — I am sharing with you a precious and dear time in my life. I hope this will nourish your wells and support our heartfelt prayers and journey.

Chapter 2 — The Wedding

Kim and I had a many layered wedding. At the time, gay marriage wasn’t recognized by PA so we made plans to be married in DC, which meant that instead of, “by the power vested in me by the state of . . . ” we were married after tear and smile filled vows, “by the power vested in me by the supreme court and congress of the United States,” we are legally married. We laugh a lot about how we’re, like, really married.

The part I really want to share with you, but I have mixed feelings of how to share it, is the heart of our marriage commitment. You know I think companionship, partnership, commitment, community, family and tribe, are all health improving things. Marriage is not required for those connections.

The idea of marrying another person, a human, with the goal of bettering my and their life in many fundamental ways was contrary to the tenants by which I live now. I didn’t and don’t want to join with another person and become 1 (in the way that makes me or them a half), make another person’s happiness my responsibility (have I learned nothing — no one’s feeling are mine to determine), I am not owned nor looking to own, and I put my spiritual path first, God as number 1, spirit guidance the resting place. These beliefs didn’t seem to fit with common examples of marriage I’ve seen.

There’s also that whole perspective of ONENESS in the first place . . . is marrying redundant entirely? Perhaps.

And yet I had this feeling we would someday get married — like a vision, a calling, a longing that I follow like a beacon, trusting that the path it leads me down is going to be awesome, even if the destination isn’t what I thought.

So . . . I sat and I mediated, and prayed . . . you know how I do . . . and I sought council. Over and over the answer came clear.

I asked my inner guidance, my root voice, highest self:

In alignment with my optimal expression on the planet,
Can I marry Kim?

No.

((guh))

Can I marry God manifested through Kim?
Yes.
Yes.
Yes.

Every time I thought about marriage for me this way I knew clear as day that I can be married to God everyday, and in fact that’s what I wanted. I want to consciously marry the Divine in another. I want to walk with a human as a human and commit to loving the Divine and deepening my love affair (I like to hold my heart, smile and look up, liken my love affair to the ones Rumi, and Hafiz write about).

I wanted and want to have a life long commitment to that — I mean, to a soul on a spiritual path of growth on this planet, 80 years is a blink, half a blink . . . its not even that long to learn how to love God more.

So we went to beach to write our vows, got in a fight, about what, can’t recall — its clear now in hindsight it was the anxiety of committing and investing our lives in this massive prayer, public status, and an evolving household dynamic. I mean, that’s a big deal and could put any person on edge. Then we mediated and wrote the first draft of our vows. The long form had rounds that evolved, but the beginning we used was pretty much the same from that beach day to our personal marriage contract and wedding day vows:

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Self:
Dear God, Beloved, Great Spirit, seen and unseen, heard and unheard, Great Mother, Oneness, Divine, the Spirit Who Moves Through All things, and all that and more, that which is beyond the articulation, comprehension, and experience of human form; I dedicate my life to the use of your Divine Will. This marriage is my marriage to You, a reflection of my practice and dedication to my fullest potential as an expression of your love.

I marry your form as is manifested in myself and Kim (she said Sophia).

Kim (Sophia), as a reflection of the Divine Mystery that is all things, do you marry and join me in the dedicated practice of partnership, through which we will forge ourselves, each other, our family, and our impact and work in the world as our optimal expression of love?

Wife:
“I do.”

And we then we spoke vows to help us bring that commitment into reality.

I want to share with you some images from the magic and healing of the marriage festival we had that included hardcore kickball and a lot of music and dancing.

Photo Credit: Nick Antony Photography

The healing that took place in this weekend has been spinning and weaving me into another kind of existence.

We are all changing — everyday. You are. I am. Creating our world with our beliefs, our investments, our choices. Its a powerful thing to think about. The world, the whole thing is just made up by the mixing of us all . . . and yet when we look for a certain thing we are sure to find it.

This week — let’s look for love. Mystery taking care of us. Change being a gift of betterment, and my favorite . . .

permission to be
just
as
I             You        We
am.        Are.      Are.

In love and gratitude,
Sophia

I Am Willing To Admit . . .

Hi loves!!!

I am in total launch mode and a BIG PROJECT will be announced later the week! So excited, it’s coming together and I am thrilled to unveil so soon!

For those of you who were with me at Omega, this week’s video is a throw back to the trust building we did together.

Truth telling and shame clearing are two of my favorite and most effective healing techniques. This video is about their meeting point. I offer an exercise you can use to clear the heaviness of secrets or internal voices with yourself or in relationship.

Relationship — anyone/thing you relate to!

Meaning I encourage you to play these heart opening and truth telling games with family, friends, community members, as well as partners.

The prompt for this exercise consists of:

“I am willing to admit that . . . ”

“The thing I am afraid to say out loud is . . . ”

Since I made this video I added a step. When the sharing is complete the listener/s say:

“I honor you.
I hear you.
I see you.
I thank you.
I love you.”

Play with it. Does it feel best to respond every round, every few times, or at the end?

At the end of the video I talk about a realization I had that turned into a vow — “Honest communication and compassion at all costs and at all times for all involved.”

I’m not claiming that I do this all the time — I am telling you that it’s a vow I made so that when given a moment of awareness inside myself in which I am deciding and weighing truth telling, cost, judgement, and compassion . . . I’ve already decided how it’s going down. It’s going down with truth telling and compassion, towards myself and others.